Friday, May 20, 2016

May 19th, 2016

I saw that girl that i was obsessed with on the train. She doesn't care and has her life to follow. I actually did not feel anything.

Sunday, March 13, 2016

Lucid dream 3/13/16

I just had a lucid dream where I was at an art opening at my studio and it had no furniture and no wall divider. So it was all filled with sculpture and interactive art all over the floor. Some people are walking around while others sit on the floor looking at the smaller objects. At this point I realized I was dreaming.

I looked around and everything was in vivid color. I'm sitting on the floor talking to someone and one of the artists hands me a small piece of paper with text and intricate paper cut out patterns on the edges. I start noticing the extreme level of detail that my brain is doing to render this dream.

I start walking around and looking at every little texture. I look in my kitchen area to see what I have. I then walk outside and the street is a wider busier 2 lane avenue with huge trees on the sidewalk. I look up at the 3 floor building and start climbing the wall. Once I get to the top, I sit down and just look around in a panoramic view at my brain's creation.

Saturday, December 26, 2015

Dream 12-25-15

Just had an interesting dream where I was part of a team traveling to another alternate reality. There was a group of us in some warehouse waiting in line to go through a big doorway. It was kind of like a Stargate but rectangular with a ramp and no fancy special effects. The center was just black. So when it was my turn, I walked up the ramp, walked into the blackness and instantaneously came out the other side which was the inside of another building  with rooms and aisles with storage boxes plus people working.

I walked through out the building looking for an exit. I climbed up some stairs and eventually found one. There where a few people near the door so I asked this cute girl what I was supposed to do. She said to explore and come back later for a group dinner.

As I walked onto the street of this metropolitan alternate reality city I felt the fresh outdoor air going into my lungs. A few people were walking about and I noticed the building facades were filled with intricate stone designs. They looked centuries old but without the usual Greco-Roman influence that you see in 19th century USA cities.

I walked for a few blocks and came across what looked like an alley. I looked away for a second and then back and the alley was gone. It was just a brick wall. It was then that I realized I was dreaming and woke up.

Monday, September 07, 2015


I believe in the multi-verse theory where anything that can happen, does happen. All possible outcomes of any decision you think you make does happen and you only experience your choice. you cannot deviate and experience other options after you choose. Quantum theory tries to explain how the minute elements behave at a microscopic subatomic level. They exist both as a particle and a wave until you perceive them. Your choices in life exist as every possible option until you decide.

Thursday, August 13, 2015

Lucid dream

Early this morning I had a lucid dream where was living on a 2nd floor apartment in an unfamiliar building and location. All of a sudden tons of people come in and start having a party. I don't know any of these people. At this point I realize I am dreaming because I feel myself laying on my bed and this scene being some projection or virtual reality.
After some NSFW moments, I start exploring and trying to change the environment. I look at a wall and think there are other rooms so a door gradually appears. I go through it until I find a stairway and go downstairs and eventually find myself outside in the backyard.
I stand in the center, look up and see the electrical wires connecting the house. I jump up, touch the wires and pull them up slightly and let go like a rubber band. I float back down gently towards the grass. I then start jumping on garages and over trees until my alarm wakes me up.

Friday, June 19, 2015

My Friday Rant

I realize I exist at a point in history that is still fucked up by (stupid) ideology, race and religion and truly hope one day we will look back at this time period and see how primitive we behaved. We need to dismantle the current systems and devise one that benefits all of us in order to evolve as a species.